Natural

To accomplish anything great, we must take small steps.
Every moment matters.

How each moment progresses is up to us.
Some of us decide to leave, some stay, and others don't move at all.

This isn't about location.
It's about our own life. A special fork that was placed in your path just for you.

No two people are alike, and no one has the exact same experience.
We are individuals, with our own goals, priorities, and faults.

It is up to us to take the good from every one of these aspects we experience to help us grow and better not only ourselves; but our fellow brothers and sisters.

You never know who you're gonna pass roads with,
Whether it's a complete stranger that ends up becoming your best friend,
or the girl you met online that rocked and crushed your world.

While we never have the same experiences as individuals,
we all seem to learn similar life lessons and morals.

Seems natural...
But where do we go from there?

I think it's safe to say that if you want to grow and gain intelligence, we must accept information that's being given to us from the outside world and our peers.

The world and us are one and I can't imagine it any other way.

~Eric Rolled On

Benefits

Do you ever feel trapped by your own debt? Like you're afraid to go outside, because even the thought of breathing feels like it costs something to you...

Takes money to make money - most people know that.

What's worse is when you get used to a standard of living and those resources run dry - whether it's finances, relationships, drugs, or food... I guess this is the only way to gain humility. The less we have, the more we appreciate things. Kind of ironic...

We all want what's best for ourselves in life but it's easy to forget others and how our decisions may affect them. And even if we do realize it - it's hard to make the conscious effort to do what we think may help the person next to us.

I often hear people say that they don't like the idea of money. That money is the root of all evil.

Well I have disagree. Money is nothing more than a system of value that we've created as a society to create an easier means of exchanging goods.

If you don't have a job or any input to your society, what makes you valuable? Your looks? Your persona? This ain't Hollywood people!

You don't have to like money to be wealthy - you just have to have value. And developing value takes time, effort, and a hell of a lot of practice. Whether you flip burgers, play piano, write, install television cable - you are a benefit to this society and are making use of yourself as a human.

We are arguably the most intelligent species on this planet yet so many of us find ourselves constantly complaining about the absence of opportunity.

But then again, President Obama recently made a valid point that got me to consider other people's situations and how in the world they got there.

""It's a cruel Catch-22," Obama said at a White House event with CEOs, job training groups and advocates for the unemployed. "The longer you're unemployed, the more unemployable you may seem."
~ http://www.theprovince.com/business/CEOs+head+White+House+with+commitments+help+longterm+unemployed/9453274/story.html

Can you imagine what it's like to be in that situation?

I've been unemployed for a mere 3 weeks and I feel like my world is falling apart; I can't imagine another 24 weeks of this horrible situation.

But - I have to admit....I've had plenty of opportunities arise. For me, it all boiled down to what was more important to me - the money...or the comfort?  I'm sure many of you readers can relate...

I have a couple of interviews lined up within the next two days, and due to my financial situation I have no choice but to take one of them regardless of me liking it or not.

Because in the end, we all need to play a part in contributing to our society. Whether you're an architect or a fry cook - you are a benefit to our society!

Don't ever forget that.

~Eric Rolled On

Fridays

Don't you hate when you get sick because of your indulgence. Whether it's food, drugs, alcohol, sex, money, yada yada yada....

I saw a quote today that read...
"Human being; not human doing"

It got me thinking. What is value? What is "doing something"?

Right now I feel perfectly happy just typing away all my bullshit from the past few years while not really achieving anything of monetary value...at least not yet -who knows?

Let's face it - we all have some loss of direction - yea, there are those few who have a full on drive towards one big change in the world and they are always known for more than a decade. But we're not all those people. We are everyday normal....lol..."normal"...human beings.

So what are we doing?

Are we just  working our typical 9-5 because we love "weekends"?  Why can't everyday be Friday huh?

Fridays are fucking awesome right??

Purpose

Ever feel like you have a bigger advantage over people? Not in a means of performance or knowledge, but  in the area of opportunity?

You know; we all know the rich kid - or maybe you are the rich kid; who sees others walking into the doors with a bigger chance all because of social class.

It's disturbing.

Yea...life is not fair - boy do I know that...

Trust me - I've had plenty of opportunities to grow and mature and I deliberately avoided them. And now here I am, a 23 year old male, unemployed looking for a meaning, cause. and fucking purpose to put to use.

Worst feeling I can have from what Ive noticed, is feeling useless. like I'm breathing for no reason.

We are not machines. We are compassionate conscious carbon.

Crazy how we feel like we can starting living our lives once we've found our purpose; yet we spend so much time of it, trying to find purpose.
I think God intended it to be that way.

Four Starters

For starters; I just gotta say, cheap delicious wine is always awesome. If you haven't tried Oak Leaf wine - it's a must. #walmart

For the past 4 years approximately, I decided to start producing music. Took a few classes- 82 credits plus an Internship to be exact, yet I never completed an actual #degree in anything.

I just wanted to learn.
 
I took the classes that sounded the most interesting, and before I knew it, I was really close to achieving an AA in Music Performance and Business from ACC. A community college, which I'll admit, I'll mutter some mean things to myself for considering this an accomplishment, #pretentious

Don't get me wrong, I had some amazing professors that completely changed my life and gave me a view on not only #music, but an insight on living our own definitions of #success.

I'll never forget what my Music History teacher said...

"Don't let school get in the way with your #education.
Don't let school get in the way with your #education."

It struck a chord with me. I was two classes away from receiving my Associates #Degree, but I didn't feel like I was really headed toward any sense of #accomplishment.

I took the time to make the grades, work full-time, maintain a crazy girlfriend here and there (don't get me started...); everyone thought I doing great and on the road to #success.

They were wrong.

The day was March 17th, 2013. I was working overnight on Aisle 3 as a grocery stocker for #HEB Grocery.

I looked right at my coworker, dead in the eye and said...

"Luis, I really wanna quit school but I don't know if it's just the drugs."

He laughed as he knew I was being serious. I was known for taking a lot of psychedelics in my day, so my perspective on things was....different than others.

My idea of #success, wasn't a degree.
It wasn't #money.
It wasn't #fame or fortune.
Women or #power.

It was knowledge and wisdom.

I find myself questioning my everyday decisions, but all I can really do is look up, have #faith, and ask this Universe for #Wisdom

~Eric Rolled On

Introduction

An introduction to myself -  Eric Roldan.  I am currently a 23 year old male - born on March 7th, 1990.  I find this date to be particularly interesting as I have a passion for music. And as any Music Major student would know, all primary chords consist of a 3rd and 7th degree intervals. Nifty huh? That or I'm crazy; which a lot of people started to call me when I turned 22.

There is always so much to do in the world yet I tend to find myself having trouble staying busy. Which is probably why I'm starting this blog.

To anybody reading, I appreciate your time as this is the only way I feel like I can be honest in a semi-anoymous world of my confessions, desires, and every other emotion of being human.

Anybody who has made it this far can look back at all they have gained, lost, earned, and deserted. And the Wisdom that followed.

This blog isn't just for me. It's for anybody else who feels they can relate to my persona in this complex, cruel, compassionate, and sometimes confusing thing we call Life.

~Eric Rolled On